.Saturday, August 21, 2010 ' 10:25 PM♥.
today, went back to grandma hse.. cos we are gg to the cementery where you are at now.. reached grandma's hse at 12am.. omg.. and den we did some packing for tml.. till ard 1plus, zhezhe came to me and asked me to remind him to bring along a card for u.. smth which i felt realli touched.. he realli put in an effort to make someting for u.. so sweet of him.. but i guess yr love for everyone is felt even to little kids.. and him.. a ten yr old boy..
his definition of heaven is butterfly! his efforts realli made me feel touched by him.. i m sure aunt will be v happy and touched to see his little letter..
jus feeling rather emo.. though these days, i dun wanna think of u..but at the back of my mind, somehow i still felt that this is jus a dream.. that u are at somewhere.. but not here.. cos we had been separated for abt 2 yrs though we still meet there and then.. but somehow.. perhaps, i guessed it is just me who has not accepted the truth.. i have to admit that i am jus avoiding.. avoiding the thought.. avoiding the fact.. i noe i haf to stand up..
somehow, life still goes on for me.. but sometimes, i realli wished u were with me.. i haf so much to tell u.. those can range from domestic and simple things. and also major things.. sometimes, i jus feel like telling u.. cos i noe u will be listening and ur character is rather closer to me than others.. that makes me realli wanna tell u.. i duno why.. though i mus admit that i haf a bf that u like, somehow, i jus feel that i dun wanna tell him everything..not becos i haf smth to hide, but jus becos,i dun wanna be too dependent on him.. i jus feel that he is my bf.. bf, he may haf the possiblity to leave me somedae..but u, u are my close kin..someone who will b dere for me.. alwas..
looking at ur sisters and brothers, i can truely feel that they do miss u.. seriously, and granny, she still hasnt accepted the fact..
i guess in this 4 mth long vacation, i had two great jobs.. as receptionist and admin. i reali met nice ppl and i realli enjoy my job.. other than that, my life is still not so bad.. but i must admit that this is realli the biggest change in my life.. and i noe i must get over and stand up soon.. as it has been 3mths plus alr..dun worry. i noe and i will stand up one day..and i haf to say "every bit of you will always remain in my heart."
and i mus say, i realli thanks my frens who are being dere for me when this realli big change happened.. thanks for ur calls and smses to ensure that i m fine and of cos yr doughnuts..(u shd noe who u all are) thanks!
YYY
